the desire is still there, but the motivation fizzled away. you think i lacked purpose and direction for my life?
i then turned 29, went on a trip to japan and taiwan. after which i decided to take one year off to see if God wanted me in full-time ministry. i was then asking the Lord for a destination in south america to spend 9 - 10 months as a short-term missionary. i contacted south america missions, met up with a missionary, and was in the process of filling out their application... but there was just no clear leading. it was then time to head off to the ranch. i figured these applications can be filled out in the summer while i sought after God's direction in His creation.
being a slacker with little self control, those applications never saw the light of day. however, i cut myself some slack... there just wasn't clear leading i told myself. plus, wouldn't you rather guide a raft down the klamath or lead a low ropes course? or in your spare time go squirrel hunting?
|young school girls wanting a piece of the white man.|
|scooter day in chiayi.|
taiwan's an entire entry in itself. the time in taiwan for 3 months, was unbelievable. it solidified a few convictions in my heart. it healed a lot of how i felt about taiwan. it drew me closer to my father and his family. what a blessed 3 months. my dad says i will probably never have a time like that in my life again. hehe. he is most likely right, but Lord willing, i'd like to prove him wrong some day. (hi daddy!) :P
we arrived in hk in early october, with willis & ej, and i met up with an old acquaintance - ms. lau! over lunch, she heard of my year off and asked if i'd be interested to work for her in lima, peru. where? south america. interestante. to do what? to manage a start-up importing company for the petroleum industry in south america. to do what??? does the company provide housing? yep, you'll have an ocean view apartment. ms. lau, you know i have no experience in this area. yep, i know. you know i speak nada spanish. yep, that's okay.
my mind: Lord, what is going on?! did i want another job? what happened to serving you full time? why does my heart find this interesting and why am i drawn to this? utter confusion. while sitting on the kowloon side, looking at hk island praying and asking the Lord for direction, conviction and clarity, God didn't send a fleece to speak to me. :(
after 2 months of prayer, i decided to accept her proposal, with a few terms. i was still technically employed by northrop grumman, so i was to go as a volunteer. second, i was given a trial period of 2-3 months. if things just weren't a good fit for her or for me, i could return to northrop grumman in may, or pursue other endeavors.
upon returning to los angeles in january, i fell sick and never thought i'd get a proper visa in time. that came through, even when i needed more pages in my passport, cause i was out. i was able to get plenty of hyperthyroid medicine to last me till may. (i was to return to the states in may, cause of jack & pri's wedding, which was beautiful!!!) i was able to pack. and my church gave me a wonderful farewell by sending me to the airport.
|jack & pri's wedding|
i turned 30 9 days after arriving in lima. by march/april of 2011, it is was clear in my heart that i was to stay beyond may. if the Lord allows, my plan is to work here for 2-3 years. if i am helpful to ms. lau and united america petroleum (uap), i will stay longer. if uap is still around after 2-3 yrs, that means the Lord has guided me and provided for me. up to 6 or 7 years, depending on where the company is, i will strongly desire to go into full-time ministry. Lord willing to some missions organization doing specifically mobilization like mr. jason wu, or participating in some extent with missions. maybe just to rub it in, to go back to taiwan and spend months with my father while helping out various ministries. it'll complete a full cycle. i will then be 36 or 37 years old. will i be married? will i have children? will i only be able to last in peru for 1 year and jet? as much as i can plan my life, He is in charge of it. but, most importantly, i will know this ... God and i will be tight. He will have led me through peaks and valleys, joys and pains, triumphs and failures that i will never have experienced if i stayed in my cubicle at northrop grumman. whether there are more failures than triumphs, or more joys than pains, He will be my God and i will choose to follow Him.
please keep me in your prayers... for steadfastness and protection. to be strong and secure in Him. that i may gird up my loins and fight for the Lord. and when the going gets tough, He will be my comfort and i will be strengthened by Him. please pray for me, in terms of missing my family and friends back home. i miss you guys dearly! :'(
i'm 30 now, i definitely picked up a grand new adventure here in america del sur.